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Messy

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Right now I’m sitting on the living room eating a grilled cheese sandwich.  The kids have already finished their lunch and discussed Proverbs 1 together.  I usually eat lunch with them, but today I just needed a break- some quiet time.

I haven’t been blogging often. I could offer excuses like I’ve been spending time with the kids or we’ve been having amazing adventures, but the truth is I just haven’t wanted to share our lives.

It’s messy- our life.  It’s not tidy and pretty.  It’s been full of chaos.  I’ve wanted to retreat.  Instead I fell into old ways, old patterns.  I did the things that don’t make things better, but also don’t make them worse.  But by doing that, in the long run, I did make them worse.  And now I’m struggling to recover.  We had taken 10, 15, 20 steps forward, only to take 5, 10, 15 steps back.

Life isn’t a race.  But it’s quickly catching up with me.  Our oldest is about to turn 13 and she is amazing.  But she’s also clueless sometimes and that’s my fault.  I need to be on the ball.

A messy, sticky life is good if you can still see the floor.  I can’t see 10 inches around me right now.  I’m digging through it.

Winter Must Have Passed Us By

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It’s February 8th, but it sure doesn’t feel like it.  We spent the morning taking a long walk to the park, playing on the playground, and then walking back.  It was beautiful- much nicer than usual and definitely better than the summer.

We’re finding normal here.  And although we’re still feeling lonely, we have found a rhythm to our life and it’s right for us.

Happy New Year!

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2011 was the year that things finally started looking up for us- we found a nice big house that we love and can afford, my hubby spent his first 3 semesters in school after 30 years and made the Dean’s List all 3, and he also found a job after 15 months of unemployment that will help him stay in school.  I also found a great like-minded friend which is something that definitely had been missing from my life.

I’m hoping the momentum will carry on through the new year!  I’m very content right now and though there are some new skills I’d like to learn and a few new habits I’d like to make, I’m not looking to make any huge changes this year.  I want to continue to be happy and content with what I have and not look forward at the uncertain future or look back at what cannot be changed.

Happy 2012.

And the days pass by…

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I had the best intentions to completing my month of gratitude, but it just didn’t happen.  Life gets so busy so quickly sometimes.

The week before Thanksgiving Sal finally found a job.  It’s only seasonal but it’s been a blessing.  He has also found a part-time job starting on January 1st.  He will be working as a gate attendant at one of the country clubs in the area.  It’s a night job so he will still be able to continue going to school during the day.   We’re hoping he can stay on at his seasonal job as a part-time employee,too, and then we should be ok.

We’re adjusting to not having him home often now.  I miss having him here at bedtime but I’m sure glad to see him when I wake up.  Facing putting the kids to bed alone is sometimes a bit overwhelming, too, but we’re hitting a pretty good routine now.

The house is decorated for Christmas now and Mesa spent the afternoon baking chocolate peppermint cookies.  I’m almost done with our shopping but I still have quite a few things to make.  I’ve been in a rut and I’m so glad that I feel like I’ve snapped out of it!

I hope that I’ll be back to share more in my space.